Every day, her goal was just to feel less. In the hospital she went six days without sleep. She hallucinated, she jabbered at the television. She felt as if she could reach out and touch her mood with the palms of her hands it felt cool to the touch , and out her window saw gleaming, futuristic cities. Bryan visited her in the psych ward, and she begged him to take their daughter, because she never knew whether she was coming back. But she did come back, of course.
A woman less difficult might have stayed mum about the whole thing. She could easily have confessed to her fondness for prescription painkillers and no one would have been the wiser. But Carrie was on the front lines of oversharing. She was TMI-ing in advance of the abbreviation. She had no interest in protecting her image as a sexy space princess, or even the princess of so-called Hollywood royalty. She talked about it all, including electroconvulsive therapy ECT.
This had to have taxed even her candid nature. Carrie came of age during a time when admitting to ECT was career ending. Some people found her confessions to be just too much. The Washington Post , reviewing The Princess Diarist , predicted her honesty would make readers cringe. I conducted an unscientific survey of maybe two dozen men, and found that the more hard-core their Star Wars fandom, the less interested they were in seeing Carrie Fisher in any other role aside from Princess Leia.
Better me than you. But the only person who got stupidly rich was George Lucas. She was paid scale, and had no profit participation. In her one-woman show Wishful Drinking, she discussed this inequity, and she was not sanguine about having her likeness superimposed on a shampoo bottle when you unscrewed her head, shampoo poured out of her neck. Or a PEZ dispenser, or a lunch pail, or all the other Leia objets that have haunted her existence, while not making her a sou richer.
She joked in her facerious way about how, because she never owned her likeness, she had to pay George every time she looked in the mirror. Still, for a year-old she was rolling in dough. She blithely hired a business manager someone recommended and forgot all about it. When she needed money, she got some—until sometime in her 40s, when she discovered she was more or less broke.
She thus began a lucrative side gig as a lap dancer. Can you imagine? Carrie felt as if she were both Leia and the custodian of Leia; given that she was also Roy and Pam, you can see how exhausting her life could be. In , Carrie went on the road with Wishful Drinking. Developed in L. For two years she was on the road. Also, for an addict living one day at a time, a pint of ice cream now and then, mostly now, seemed utterly harmless. She was not unaware.
She knew the jeans and skinny tees had been pushed to the back of her closet and she was living in leggings and tunics. She used to be so hot. There was nothing for it but to lose the weight. And she did: Fifty pounds in nine months, at the age of Anyone, male or female, able to maintain the focus and discipline to drop 50 pounds—especially staring down the barrel of 60—is a badass of near-superhero proportions.
In fairness, Carrie did disappoint every male fan of the original trilogy by refusing to spend her life maintaining the illusion that she was still that lithe, slim-waisted girl in a metal bikini. She could have, you know. Rather than write books, doctor scripts, speak out on behalf of those with mental illness, parent to the best of her ability, and care for Eddie and Debbie in their dotage—for she always adored her parents, despite the crap they put her through as a child—she could have obsessively tended her figure.
She could have spent her life working out multiple times a day and lived on air and cigarettes, in the manner of a working supermodel.
Instead, she had a full, messy, imperfect life. When the ageist body-shaming schmucks came after her on Twitter, she was not silent. Unfortunately it hurts all 3 of my feelings. Blow us. Carrie Fisher was not the first Princess Leia. In , during casting, there was another, much younger girl named Terri Nunn whom George Lucas had tapped for the role. Much like Fisher herself, the property is unique and colorful. See the full home profile and Carrie Fisher address here.
Carrie Fisher portrayed Princess Leia and had a love-hate relationship with the character, and what came along with it. In her memoir Wishful Drinking, Fisher detailed her disdain for many of the things she was forced to wear as Princess Leia, most notably the metal bikini in Return of the Jedi.
He and Carrie were never married, but were together from Fisher opened up about her split from Lourd, saying she felt humiliated and like a failure when he left her for a man, reportedly telling her she made him gay. Many people have speculated that Carrie Fisher had a stroke that affected her voice, but no one really knows.
Yes, Carrie Fisher and Paul Simon were indeed married. However, their dating relationship was much longer-lived than their month marriage. They began dating in and called if off in when Dan Aykroyd proposed to Fisher on the set of their film The Blues Brothers. Fisher had a special knack for seeing the darkness of a subject and making it something funny. She could bring out the best in people. She lifted them up while simultaneously bringing them down a peg. I think it's high time we take a moment to salute the Star Wars actor's unparalleled sense of humor.
Now an oft-quoted sentiment, Fisher expressed that she wanted to be remembered as "drowned in moonlight, strangled by my own bra. During a now-iconic interview with Good Morning America host Amy Robach , she consulted her dog Gary for opinions — "He panted all the way through it It was his first real screening" — and commented on always being associated with Princess Leia.
She said, "I got into character and I've never gotten out again. Ever the gentle wit when the need arises, Fisher answered eloquently,. She had no time, patience, or care for people who wanted to criticize her aging body. But The Princess Diarist is another story. And she approaches her relationship with Ford the same way, with vague, symbol-heavy reveries and jokes covering over some deeply uncomfortable details. In Wishful Drinking and Shockaholic , she turns discomfort into humor, but here, she turns humor into discomfort.
In effect, she becomes a lovelorn, awkward year-old version of herself again when she talks about him. As an adult, Fisher championed open conversation about mental illness , had a lively and successful career as a novelist and script doctor , and maintained a weird, emoji-laden, but clearheaded public conversation with her fans about age , beauty , and her beloved dog Gary. In those books, she seemed to have found new insight into her own identity, and a new comfort with herself.
In her final interviews , she jokes about it in an irreverent, relaxed way. But the book leaves that story untold, and her death leaves it incomplete.
There was no good time to lose Carrie Fisher. But losing her with this story half-complete feels particularly tragic. It feels like the past is having the final word, when the present makes a much more satisfying story. Subscribe to get the best Verge-approved tech deals of the week. Cookie banner We use cookies and other tracking technologies to improve your browsing experience on our site, show personalized content and targeted ads, analyze site traffic, and understand where our audiences come from.
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